Friday, April 2, 2010 4:14 AM
Hey BLOG !!!!!
I think its been awhile since i update u. Haha ! Sorry dear blog. Just been busy with work. First of all , i wanna share this. HAPPY 10TH MONTH ANNIVESARY !!!!! Heee ! Weeeeeee !! Huhu ! For 10 months , we've been through thick & skinned. Im sorry for the bad things i've done to you. I realised that sometimes , i'm just cruel to you. What u wanted most for you is happiness & a sense of security given to you. That is all. I dnt expect anything from you. Through it all , i loveyou very much , Nur Iffah Bte Kamarazaman ! :)))))))) Sounds mushy , ain't it ? Well , who cares. Dnt like it ? Alt + F4 then. It will soothes your eyes then. Not much happened to me really. EXCEPT ! Some family prob. Dnt wish to elaborate. Only certain ppl know it. To top it all , nothing much i can say. Well guys ,thanx for reading ! Gdnyte folks !
Lastly , this girl here , i loveher !!!!!!
HAPPY 10TH MONTH ANNIVESARY DEAR ! :))
Much love:
Razi :))
Wednesday, February 24, 2010 9:16 PM
Tears within the heart.
Dear Blog ,I want to rant everything out here. Seriously , i have no one to turn to. Well , what else would it be if not that we r fighting. The cause of it , me. Yesterday & today. We fought. Basically , im here working. But i just dnt think i have the mood to work. It sucks oryte. She's off. She's with friends now , enjoying. Even if i said that i dnt fucking care , but i do. When ppl are angry , certain things are being took for granted. Im always wrong , true. A matter of fact , that was the time im being bloody emo & 'angry'. I just cant describe it. I dnt noe. I feel like , i just wanna end this life. Maybe its better. Nobody's goin to be worried. I tried everything. I tried to change. I tried to be who you want me to be. I tried to get rid of the old habits. I've tried. I lied coz i need your attention. I lied coz i need your faithfullness. Most importantly , i lied coz i loveyou. There wont be any reason for me to lied in order for my own self. Tears wont fall for me , but , it tears the heart. I've been living for 18years , i noe it is short. I noe all the tricks & threads of human beings. Im not bragging. This is how life goes. For 18 years , i dnt have a family love , no one understands me , no one supported me , no one even care , my family dont own a car , i came from a broken family & i dnt own a car. You do. I feel inferior to you. I envy the others who have a car , a happy family. I seriously envy you & them. I work my own way. Even though i only known you for how many months , i noe everything bout you. The only things that i dnt like is , when you talk abt your past , theres a guy joining you to whatever event it is. Yes , you said he's okay coz you are a girl. I aint a gay. Anyone wants me , he came looking for me & not the other way round. He'll be my dog , not me. Yes , your off day , i cant control you. Its not even fair , if i were to let u just sit at home. Somethings are better left unspoken. What would you feel if you were in my shoes ? The scene. My off day , i go out with frens , all boys , & girls wanna join us , for sure we will let them join. What you do are all behind closed door. Whatever happens , its behind closed doors. What would feel that way ? This are all possibilities , not thinking nonsense. Reasons of possibilities is there but reasons of impossibilities is not. What would you feel ? I dnt think i can write much longer. Its done for now. Broke down to tears but i will hold it. Losing you will cause me a thousand miles to walk & get you back. But i'll will walk a million miles just to get you back. I promise. No finger crossed.
Sunday, February 21, 2010 3:08 AM
Dear Blog ,Currently at work now. Very cold , aircon full blast. haha ! But its fine. Being busy this few days. Work was fantastic but i dnt understand why the new boys get the name rather than the old ones. I dnt think they can challenge us. They are still new. No experiences. I dnt wanna make a big issue out of it. Only people who cant stand they criticism will make an issue out of it. I dnt know what else to talk about. Im only waiting for my pay. After that its my road of becoming a millionaire. :)) Dnt be suprised if im a millionaire. :)) I dnt wanna talk abt it. Well , i guess , im gonna blog just this short. Chiows chiows ! :))
Tuesday, February 16, 2010 7:52 AM
Dear Blog,
Currently at work now , arrival is only 118 & departure is 173. Gonna be bz this afternoon. But now its quiet. So , i decided to blog for awhile. This is a short one. Doing morning shift. Evryone's sleeping i guess. What happened yesterday ? Erm , family go picnic but not me. Reached home 7 plus. Eat & watch Shanghai Knights. Then sleep. Well , This is the team Concierge in Marina Mandarin Singapore. Was one of 'The Leading Hotels of The World'. :))
The pics ? Here you go.
The Concierge in MMS.
Pinoy Concierge.
The King of Soccer Gambler , Malaysian Valet , Raja & Singapore Valet ,Simon.
Old Chang Kee , William aka Hijacker.
Rafi aka The Know Everything of Singapore & around the world & Pinoy Kid , Arjay.
Introduction of a Concierge.
The origin of the word Concierge comes from France in feudal times and is derived from the words «comte des cierges» meaning keeper of the candles and referred to as the person in charge of all of the guests and functions in palaces or castles. In the middle ages the concierges were the «keepers of the keys» in government buildings and castles. In the beginning of the 20th century international tourism rapidly increased with the advent of rail travel. Concierges became common place in the great hotels of Europe and in October of 1929 the first international meeting of Concierges took place in Paris.
Today the Concierge Team generally facilitates guest arrivals and departures, and manages valet parking and room deliveries. In addition the Concierge acts as an ambassador not only for the hotel but for the cities they work in. Your Concierge has access to a world wide network of professionals who can make arrangements for you anywhere and anytime.
At The Marina Mandarin, Singapore, the Concierge is an expert in arranging everything from the common place to more challenging requests. Restaurant bookings, car rentals, airline tickets, limousines, tours, flowers, gifts, directions and much more are routinely handled at the Concierge Desk. We love a challenge and thrive on the unusual.
Thats all folks. :))
Monday, February 15, 2010 4:34 AM
Dear Blog ,I miss my mum. But i dnt think she noes it. Her sister are all craps. Seriously , i wanna meet her but her sister are the ones that stopping me from goin. She wants a hse to live in but i cant possibly give her. When through the divorce , her family said they wanted to take care of her. Guaranteed her a shelter above her head but its all lie. Money is the reason. Haishx. What kind of brother & sister she have. Seriously , if there is a time machine , i would go back to the time that she took care of me. & never grow. Now , in this filled heart , remorseful of the tragedy. Mum , if you could hear me , i would give my hand to you , & let you stay in my heart w/o any rent. I want you badly that i still have your picture. Im wondering what life are you leading now. Have you eaten ? Do you still in misery ? I know you hate me , but i dnt mind mum. I just need you. Kakak is already an unwed mother. She stole uda bracelet & sell it off at 3K. She spents the money w/o any prove of her spending. I even got out of wrk when kak mas text me. This family doesnt have any family love at all. I dnt mind. I can cope like what im doing now. I still could think using my own brain. But kakak is different mum. Now kakak has alrdy repent. She's wearing a hijab now. Her responsibility is greater now. I still supports the family. Everythings changed. Ayah is coping very slowly. I know he's hurt. Many things that kakak do breaks everyone hearts. Even me mum. Im dying to see you. Im dying to bring you over. But.... Time will tell mum. I hope you are doing okay. I call you as soon as i have the time for you mum. I promise. One more thing you should noe , only Iffah noes about me. She's the only one that understand me. She's the only outsider that understand me well mum. Pray for me as im praying for you.
With undying love
Mamat / Your son.
Dear blog , I end my day very well today :)) In collaboration with Chinese New Year & Valentine's day. Well of course , i spent my day with NurIffah. :)) But let start from the time i reached home. Pretty sucky actually. Reached home ard 8plus. Cant rmbr exactly. Then everyone was awake. So , i make my way to my room & changed. My aunt call me , 'Mamat , kau nak mkn tak ? Ade tulang nie , mak uda buat smlm.' Hahaha ! I was like , 'Huh ? Tulang ?' Haha ! I rushed to the kitchen & took a bowl , scooped like till the bowl was almost full. Hahahaha ! I was damn hungry , thats why. Wakaka ! Aku punya lapar , 2 bantal roti aku sapu kasi abes. Then i lie down on the bed & was fast asleep. Not to forget a gdnyte msg sent to NurIffah laa. :)) About 12pm , i felt that the bed was wet. My niece was there , so i asked him , 'Asal basah katil nie ?' He replied , 'Nabil (my nephew) wet the bed.' He laugh out loud. I was , what the hell. Then i sleep again w/o moving anywhere. HAHAHA ! I slept on a bed that was partially wet with urine. Hahaha ! Till 4pm , NurIffah came calling she has knocked out from work. I went straight to the toilet & bath. Haha ! The plan was to fly a kite unfortunately , someone dnt want to play coz its hot. She told me that after i have went out from the hse with my extra T-shirts , shorts , hair wax & shampoo. Haiyo ! But then , i still love her laa. Gaa ! Reached sengkang about 5plus. Met her & plan to eat. Coz im hungry. End up we ate ice cream. I want to eat some food but suddenly not hungry. So we ate ice cream. We line up at Mac to buy ice cream but i told her , 'Yok kite mkn Swensen nye ice cream. Kan lagy sedap dari Mac. Hahaha !' Eventually , Swensen ice cream we ate. Weee ! After eating the ice cream , we just hang around till 9.30pm. Coz i gotta work. Now im wrking & its freaking bored. One person MC , i got to cover till 9am. Damn ! Nak resign , resign laa dgn cara baek , menyusahkan org jer. Mintk kene sepak siak. Hmm. Nvm , forget abt work. Im planning to watch Percy Jackson & The Lightning Thief. I heard it was good , so why not watch it ehk. Interested anyone ? Haa ! Hmm , thinking of going to RWS to accommodate there & ride the UNS with NurIffah. Mayb celebrate anni ? I dnt noe. Best choice ? GO BALI or HAWAII ! Woohoo ! Haha ! Let's hope everything plan smoothly. :)) Thats it for today. :)) Have a wonderful weekends readers ! :))
Razi.
Labels: I loveyou.
Sunday, February 14, 2010 4:13 AM
Now FINALLY !
This is the skin that i wanted. Spent 2 & a half hour doing this. Pheww ! Now back to typing & pour outs. :)) Eventually today is Valentine & Chinese New Year. Not even excited about chinese new year. Menyusahkn org ade laa. Kedai sume tutup. Apa nya bangsa. Wakaka ! Now back to Valentine. Haha ! Actually today , ermm........... I dnt even noe where to go to. HAHAHA ! Ayang tkmo mara tau. :)) But , i hope she will figured it out. Kan kan kan ? Huhu !
RECAP For today , actually yesterday but i blog today , so yesterday story to unveiled ! :))
Went to watch Valentine Day movie. A good movie. Humurous. Gay. Sex. Dedicated. Most importantly , about love. :)) Should watch the show. Running time about 129mins. Before the movie ? I slept at my wrkplace so that i can wakeup late & meet NurIffah. :)) Then i showered myself under the hot water. I dnt feel like goin out when i bathing. Coz its very cozy under the hot water , but the hot sun okay. Haa ! Nothing much happened basically.
Come live in my heart , and pay no rent dear. Sometimes , i dnt understand why ppl must get upset with relationship they shared. Relationship of all kinds , are like sand held in your hand. Held loosely , with an open hand , the sand remains where it is. The minute you close your hand & squeeze tightly to hold on , the sand trickiles through your fingers. You may hold onto some of it , but most will be spilled. A relationship is like that. Held loosely , with respect & freedom for the other person , it is likely to remain intact. But hold too tightly , too possessively , & the relationship slips away & is lost. When you come across something. You got to look around you. Take an example. An example of life. Oxygen & air. Can oxygen & air be seen or bought ? Simple. No. Life is not cruel. If its cruel , then the government will mark up a price for oxygen & air. Then humans will kill each other for the sake of money just for air & oxygen to life. Humans brains are meant to be use in a correct manner. Much things happened to me. Life for me now is nothing but afterlife. You'll get what i meant later when your brains are functioning.
Truly ,
Razi
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